I mean.. i’m not going to lie. You know i’m in recovery, if you yourself are too you know what it can be like.. at my 9th month sober I had a terrible time, & really thought that that would be the end of me. Nothing actually happened, my mind just drove me to those dark thoughts by itself. The mind is so so powerful, it’s scary. But i’m glad I got out of that headspace and didn’t jump. Just for today.